*sigh* This really sucks. It really does. Right now, I just want to escape from reality because it's just too much to bear... and I can't escape reality.
I wish I had a more dependable escape. I have one computer and at least one other person itching to get on it and use it for hours!

I know, this is all too vague, it's just that I'd rather not share this problem going on in my life right now, because it's a personal family issue.

Everybody wants me to "move on". I don't want to. I would like to get my life back to normal first. Back to the way it was before this whole thing happened.

And the worst part is, because of all these changes being made, I feel like all of my little "pick-me-ups" are being blocked. I can't stay up late anymore, and that time used to be when I talked to redxrivers.


I just wish I could go back to the way things were... at least, before my life changes again.



~Bii