*sigh* This really sucks. It really does. Right now, I just want to escape from reality because it's just too much to bear... and I can't escape reality.
I wish I had a more dependable escape. I have one computer and at least one other person itching to get on it and use it for hours!

I know, this is all too vague, it's just that I'd rather not share this problem going on in my life right now, because it's a personal family issue.

Everybody wants me to "move on". I don't want to. I would like to get my life back to normal first. Back to the way it was before this whole thing happened.

And the worst part is, because of all these changes being made, I feel like all of my little "pick-me-ups" are being blocked. I can't stay up late anymore, and that time used to be when I talked to redxrivers.


I just wish I could go back to the way things were... at least, before my life changes again.



~Bii

I've been feeling awfully nostalgic about my cat Mitten's kittens. They were born in 1996, which means that they'd be about 12-years-old by now. I was hoping there'd be some people's blogs about their cats, and maybe by some crazy chance I'd see them. Also, I'm curious to know what their new names are/were. It is, I'll have to admit, a bit frustrating, not knowing what happened to them. I thought that it would be nice if you could keep track of animals that you gave up for adoption, like they do with children sometimes. We did hear that all of them were adopted, but... it would be nice to see what they're up to.

I dunno... I hadn't posted here in a while, so I just wanted to write what was on my mind. XD

Have you've ever thought of things like this?

Ugh... I've been having trouble with going to bed & waking up early. It's like... even if I try to force myself up, I can't do it. It may not sound important to anyone else but myself, but it also effects my productivity. Waking up late makes my day even slower, whereas waking up early, I could do so much more in my day! *sigh* I could have my coffee in the morning (which takes forever) get dressed, color pictures, actually get to finish pictures, and even help my mom around the house! I'd love to do that, but if I keep waking up at 10 o'clock and 11 o'clock, then my day is just going to be wasted. -_-;

Does anyone have any tips for me? I'd very much appreciate it! <3


~Bii

Sadly, my cat Tiger died yesterday. I didn't want to watch him die, but I knew he needed comfort, so me and my brother stayed with him until it was all over. It's hard to believe he's actually gone. I miss him. His whole family misses him.He was a good cat, and he lived a long, comfortable life.






Rest in peace, Tiger.
1993-2008

I haven't posted here in like... forever! ._. Anyway, I'm glad to tell my friends that I've been feeling a LOT better now. Except for a problem I keep coming across every now & then...

I have EVEN MORE pictures! D:

... no, I'm not really troubled about it, just joking around. XD I feel good about it, actually. It's fun, but it's work.

Because I don't want to spoil anything, I'll give you some previews:






That's all I have for now. I'll upload more if I can. :3

Hello everyone! <3


I'm planning on making pictures for March > Xal-month! 8D

There's just one little problem...
I don't have ideas for all of them.


So this is what happened: I'm planning to start the whole thing a whole month earlier. Why? So that I don't end up just giving up on the whole thing because "March 1st is tomorrow! D: " So yeah...I wanna be ready!



So, here's what I want to do: I want to draw all of the pictures "Pairing-wise", but I'm having a bit of trouble.
I don't know what to do. Should I follow a theme? Should I show MY interpretations of the pairings? Should I switch between Xaldin & other kinds of him (ex: Xalcat)? Do YOU have any suggestions for certain pairings?

I already (but only) have ideas for 3/2, 3/5, 3/11, and I just got one for 3/7, but I haven't quite figured out any others. D:

So please, give me suggestions. I'd like that very much!<3



Also: HAPPY XIGXAL DAY!!!
_{...until next month, of course!}


Bye now!<3<3<3

ugh...

I'm becoming waaaaaaaaaay too picky of a fan these days...

...I'm ashamed of myself...DX

I'm not quitting... don't worry (...or celebrate) yet.... I still have many many pictures to send and I still enjoy drawing KH fanart very much c: ...I'm just conflicted with the spectating part of the fandom...

It's not anyone's fault, it's just that, for some odd reason, my ideals and the things that I enjoy are dwindling...

I dunno...

...help...please?

~Bii

I've begun to feel a little better...

Usually, when I try to cheer myself up, I'm completely abstinent from the internet, but because I have so many pictures to color in and send, I can't do that. I've NEVER been able to do that anyway. ^^; but at the moment, I'm trying to keep myself closed-in. I'm planning on coloring pictures most of the time in the future, and it'll probably be a looooooooooong time until this whole trend will finally subside and keep only to it's true fans.

As of now, I'm trying to stay positive and keep thinking about what I like and not what I hate.

So for my sake, and for everyone else's sake, I'm going to try and stay happy. :)

In the meantime, here's a little pic of Seigfried<3




~Bii

What's with the pussy Demyx?

No. Don't you walk away. You stay here and listen!

Demyx: The Melodious Nocturne, Number 9 in Organization 13. Wields a magical sitar, controls water (VERY strong & destructive element btw...), and can even control his own water clones with his water powers and command them at his will. I repeat- AT HIS WILL!


...If none of this is new to you, then you're doing well so far....


Demyx is a "Nobody". Nobodies do not have hearts. They lack deep feelings/emotions, and COMPASSION for others.

Which leads to the heart of this rant...:

DEMYX IS NOT A SWEETHEART OR AN ANGEL!
None of the Organization members are! The only one that is possibly good-natured and caring is Roxas.

And I've been keeping this in I don't know HOW long...but why is XigDem so much "better" than XigXal, or any other pairing?

I've looked into many pairings, and in all of them, I can see ways to make the two members "fit". But not XigDem.
Okay okay, in all honesty I despise the pairing. I can't stand it! Every time I see it, it makes me depressed. I hate it SO much, that I'm STILL trying to break out of my devastation upon hearing that one of my friends "Loves the pairing"
I really don't know exactly why the pairing makes me so depressed that I cry, but I do know one reason: Any of my friends would know that I'm a huge Xaldin fan- but not like most of the "Big name" Xaldin fans you know. I love him for the character he is. I love him from his awesome hairstyle, to the enigmatic and graceful air in which he moves. He is so unique and beautiful. But when I see that character I love so much get butted out by some bishie-boy who's not very unique, yet gets ten-times more respect and love from the fans as it is, it just downright pisses me off!

Though it may not be true, I can't help but think that most XigDem fans are shallow; that they like the pairing because of it's supposed "kyute-ness"(...more like because of Demyx's cuteness...) and it's another buttplug for Demyx, only better because it's a guy who's ages older than him so it makes it seem somewhat controversial. Also because...we all know that "Demyx needs moar luv!"*rolls eyes*


But back to the "shweetheart" part of it, people think that "age doesn't matter" to Demyx...and that's the part that makes me seriously ill. Demyx, is a Nobody. ALL Nobodies lack strong emotions, for that much, but, as 'hard' as it is to believe, Demyx is no exception. He has to have SOME bad traits, SERIOUSLY! He can't be going around being a naive, little lover-boy, going on romantic dates with every Organization member and their other! I definitely DO NOT think that Demyx would want to be a creepy one-eyed old guy's "mate". I mean sure, Xigbar is pretty hot for an old guy, but is it SO wrong for a blonde, pretty-boy musician to be shallow and hold the fact that "he's old" against him?

Also, I'd have to say that Xigbar wouldn't be so fond of Demyx either. Think about it...Xigbar is a badass. Demyx is a softie. And from what I gathered of the two character's personalities, I think that Xigbar would most likely be mean to Demyx. He would probably tease him a lot. That which could also work in a "friendlier" way, in which Xigbar might tease Demyx to teach him to be more thick-skinned.


I know I know, ALOT of things could be held against me with this; "Why do you draw Xigbar and Xaldin cuddling then?" "Cuddling" is too much for an in-character setting, even I would have to admit that, but what makes people think that Demyx could "love" any more than Xaldin could? BOTH of them don't have hearts. Just because Demyx is a little less harmful in impression and seems less threatening in appearance, doesn't make him so drastically different from other regular Nobodies such as Xaldin. Think about it-
HE CAN STILL KICK YOUR ASS!

I think that WAAAAAY TOO many characters and pairings are being overlooked because of BNF's pushing their views of Demyx's supposed "compatibility" with others. I agree, that Demyx would want to be friends with ANYONE in the Organization, but for reasons that he just doesn't want to be alone in a castle full of darkness (and creepy guys). He dislikes lacking a heart just as much as all the other members do. He doesn't NEED comfort. He's a Nobody, he will stand up against his enemies. All he would REALLY need from anyone is...in respect to his personality, someone to keep him from being bored, and to help him not get killed.

Also, EVERY Organization member or pairing is beautiful in any way. You don't need people to force it into you by just saying "THEY ARE CUTE!" or "THEY LUV EACH OTHER!" ten-million times! Have you ever tried to look into these characters & pairings on your own? I'm sure you'll find at least one thing that you'll like about a character. Me? The XigDem pairing is much too crowded for me to recognize the real "before it was cool" fans amongst the "follower" fans. The crowd covers up the "meaningful core" of the pairing, leaving me to fail to understand it. I DID tolerate it though, back before it was popular, just to tell you that I'm not being just plain ignorant about it.
(I wrote a journal before on Y! and took some people's advice. :) )


I'm just SO sick and tired of people copying BNFs to get attention and to be all buddy-buddy with someone popular. I mean, I respect people believing in what they want the characters to be like, but I respect it if it's REALLY their own interpretation, like if they played the game and figured out things, let ideas branch off from there. I got my interpretations of the characters from seeing them for myself, on the TV, with the controller in my hand, and...a bit unfortunately...it makes a HUUUUUUGE difference than just watching videos on Youtube. Xaldin may not be as psycho or "wild" as is portrayed by BNFs, Demyx may not be as much of a pussy, or a "sweetheart" as he is portrayed by BNFs. We look at other people's ideas and interpretations in respect to the diversity of the fandom, not to copy them or become "followers" of them just to leech off on their popularity or become a "cool person"'s friend.



You are entitled to not listen, but reading this might teach you that there's more to characters than what popular people make you believe.

Thank you for your attention,



~Bii

I have a WIP here, I kind of want to make a close-up of it, but I like the far away view of it, also, I feel like I want to draw it over again. ...Why can't I make up my mind! D:<

Anyway, the drawing in question is here>

( Xigbar+Xaldin )

Also, I want to learn how to put drawings like this under a cut. I haven't figured it out yet...^^;


Thanks!

~Bii

Well, I'm trying to feel good again. Right now, I'm alright, but I just feel the need to be happy again. I'm not quite sure what I should do...

I've finally got back to drawing, I guess I'm not that bummed anymore. :) It'd be nice though, to be all happy and cheery again, like how I felt in the spring.


Well, that's all I have for now,



Bye! <3

Just gettin' along slowly on this site! ;)
Here's a picture for you guys!





I think I'll send it to dA!


well...bye! <3



~Bii

Hi! I'm new here, and I don't know how anything works...:P

Some people might know me here. I'm Biigurutwin, from Deviantart, and Bii, from the Y!Gallery.
I'll post up links soon, if I get any friends...



Well, that's all for now. Bye!